47. turn ons
Interests in literature, music, the arts, i.e. smarts. Empathizes with almost everyone around them. Likes corny jokes, playing video games, sports, or just relaxing on the couch.
Smoldering eyes, lips turned up into a smirk, great hair I can get my fingers tangled in, a great butt, dancing close, hands on hips, hot breath on a neck and ears, successfully creating an electric tingle that runs up my spine (if you can do that, I’m probably yours)
Never figuring what I want in life. Never truly being happy with where I am. Loneliness. Opening up to people. Confrontation. Turning out like someone I knew, though most of me feels I’m not going to let that happen. Not being good enough for those I’m closest too.
53. 5 things that make me happy
Smiles on the faces of those that mean the most to me. A good book. A good drink. Getting absorbed in a moment. Art.
27. things i hate
Pretentious, bigoted fuck-asses who don’t care about others. A park closing at dusk. Having to go to bed alone on the nights when I really just need to hold on to someone or be held. Going to events where there are lots of people. Having to force a session to psych myself up about going to events where there are lots of people. Knowing I need or should confront someone, but not having the courage to do so. That sinking feeling as you’re falling to the ground and you know it’s going to hurt like hell and it was probably a bad idea that you did what you did to get into this situation. The structure of that last sentence. My own hypocrisies. That this list ends up being longer than the things that make me happy.
46. what my last text message says
You guys can feel free to ask me some more questions.